| its technically my birthday right now, |
[Nov. 13th, 2008|02:11 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "The Purple Bottle" Animal Collective | ] |
and i'd like to say that the many people that have already sent me birthday wishes have been amazing! and i love all of you!
it's especially nice to know that people who you don't even think would remember your birthday do.
i still have a whole rest of a day, which includes school and other possible things.
i got another tattoo tonight. it's on my wrist and i enjoy it thoroughly.
friday im going to the metro for justice's "a cross the universe" dvd screening. (i love those french boys) and then theres some dj's and stuff after. i'm also looking at a car earlier in the day, so hopefully its a good one bc it would be awesome to give myself a car as a birthday gift.
thats about it.
i'm kinda feeling good right now, aside from the soreness and bandages on my wrist that make me look like i was suicidal or something. eeps!
♥ |
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| :::i want to be in your photos from last night::: |
[Jul. 31st, 2008|08:23 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Heat of the Night" Pretty Good Dance Moves | ] |
http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/776716423.html
yeah, suck it bc im making a bigger deal about this then i should.
so the guys from the place right off of damen want to know if i'm down for moving in. of course i said yes which means that within a few weeks i most likely will be living in the city if i get everything i need to done. yay! plus it's only a few blocks from most of the places i go to normally. thank god for convenience.
i have a lot to do yet, and i've been exceptionally lazy.
i must get on the ball.
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| :::too many legs under the table, too many reasons for trouble::: |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|11:12 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Let's Make Out" Does It Offend You, Yeah? | ] |
so im officially going to a big girl now and move out on my own.
i check a place out tomorrow. its right near division and damen and 2 boys live there. hopefully they're not killers. one of them has a dog as well so hopefully zeus will enjoy that!
if that doesn't pan out there's still other places i have to check out as well.
the whole idea of being on my own for real is kind of terrifying in a way, but more or less because of the fact that i feel as if when i leave i'm never going to have a real "home".
if you've seen garden state and remember the scene with zack braff talking to natalie portman in the pool you might understand what i mean, bc to be honest it's hard for me to put in my own words.
that's all i really have to say at the moment.
too much on my mind. too many things i need to do.
{they say if someone thinks about you enough they might show up in your dreams, or you'll randomly start thinking about them to. well i hope that's true and i haunt theirs, and i mean that in the best way possible.}
You know I'll wait forever
If I have time to
But I don't have forever
To wait for you, yeah
So when I say I want
Us to be together
Just say you want me too
And I'll be yours forever |
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| :::No one cares when you are wrong, but I've been at this far too long::: |
[Jun. 22nd, 2008|05:28 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "I Stand Corrected" Vampire Weekend | ] |
tonight i went to the green mill and was in a stall with one the saddest bathroom doors i've ever seen.
my sleep schedule is incredibly fucked up. i keep telling myself i'm gunna fix it, but that never seems to happen bc i end up being out till daybreak all the time anyways. im almost convinced amanda is a machine due to the fact that she does what i do, yet is productive the next day. that girl has very impressive skills. for real.
crystal castles was very enjoyable on wednesday. while waiting in line to get in with jman, i met a boy who just moved here from san francisco. he was funny. he bases how much money he makes by how many sandwiches he can buy with it. it was odd.
i kinda really enjoy going to cemeteries.
things are good, or so i'd like to think anyways.
why does everyone always have to be gone?
they're is a lot of really good music out there.
i have to sit down this week and pick out my schedule for next semester. thankfully i dont have to worry about english or math anymore bc im done with those, thank god. although now i need to get my all my science requirements done with, and those are gunna suck.
i really really want someone to post a missed connection about me just because.
{edit/after i typed that i was reading them and this is what i see: http://chicago.craigslist.org/chc/mis/728104152.html HELARIOUS!!!! i really wonder who it is.}
i like how you enjoy when things remind me of you.
.Something about the midwest sun and oh
It makes me miss you more than life
Could be the trees that stand alone in the fields
They remind me every couple of miles. |
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| to a very sexy lady.... |
[May. 31st, 2008|05:12 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Foundations" Kate Nash | ] |
happy birthday
amanda!!!!!!!
iloveyou!
you're hot!
♥
that is all i have to say. |
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| :::Lord give me grace and dancing feet, and the power to impress::: |
[Mar. 7th, 2008|10:05 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "The Prayer" Bloc Party | ] |
best compliments ive received as of late: the other day
i was called "sassy" by two different boys on different occasions.
its been my highlight of the week.
oh, this has been bothering me....why do some guys find it
to be soooo irritating that i dont drink? fuck that shit.
i do what i want. im just as fun, if not funner, then the
sloppy drunk chick standing next to me at the bar, and im better in bed.
suck on that.
...a real update may possibly be coming soon.
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| :::February, Valentines Day, Did my best to avoid the red clichés::: |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|12:25 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Don't Cry Out" Shiny Toy Guns | ] |
i hope everyone had a great valentine's day.
personally it had its up and downs.
im not sure how i would explain that.
nothing bad happened thats for sure.
its weird, if you really try to pay attention to all
the mood swings you go through during a day they seem
to all blend together so well....in some odd way it's wonderful.
today 3 (ugo) boys started talking to me while
i was having a cigarette at school. one of the boys asked
me if the reason girls get all dressed for valentine's
day is because they have a date later in the day, or
if it's because they're hoping that a boy will think that
they're pretty and ask them on a date.
i told him i wasnt sure, then responded that i was
wearing all black and that i look like im going to a
funeral. he asked if i was. i looked at the ground put
my cigarette out and said no. he prolly thinks im odd. good.
i cant wait till my phone is working again.
i'm beginning to despise my thoughts
when im sitting around between classes.
it sucks not having someone to discuss things
with when you're bored.
i wanna get my dance on.
i did that friday night and it
was awesome. yeah. im lame. i know.
oh, and a side note: someone who has a special place in
my heart told me that my name is on an important legal document.
while waiting to go into my math class i started thinking
about it and felt oddly flattered, because it means someone
is giving me their trust in a life or death situation.
i never felt soo special, even though it might seem kind of morbid.
thank you for trusting me.
it really does mean a lot.
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| :::To you I'm just a confused child, insecure or in denial::: |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|01:01 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Despite What You've Been Told" Two Gallants | ] |
i stole this from something and really liked it:
I’m reminded of a scene in one of my favorite movies, Harold and Maude, in which Maude has just told Harold that if she could be a flower, she’d like to be a sunflower, and asks him what kind he’d like to be. He gestures at an enormous field of daisies, and when asked why, says, “because they’re all the same.”
Maude assures him though that they’re not, showing him, and saying,
“See — some are smaller, some are fatter, some grow to the left, some to the right, some even have some petals missing — all kinds of observable differences. There is not a repeat in the bunch. Each person is different, never existed before and never to exist again. Just like this daisy — an individual.”
“I believe much of the world’s sorrow comes from people who know they are this — (she holds the daisy) — yet let themselves be treated — (she looks out at the field) — as that.”
I never wanted to be different, I just wanted to be me.
me. them.
they can make me feel small.
i wanna get some more tattoos sometime in the next 2423432 years.
thats my plan.
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| :::I don’t even know what it's like not to go back to you::: |
[Jan. 28th, 2008|11:34 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Mysteries" Yeah Yeah Yeahs | ] |
i originally stole this from nicole on myspace....
and since it took me a while i decided to just
post it on here as well bc i like it.
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into Photobucket
3) Take any picture from the first page of results and post. (click on the picture and copy the HTML code)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you!
The age you be on your next birthday?
A place you'd like to travel?
Your favorite place?
anywhere in the city. particularly michicgan ave.
Your favorite object?
my new camera.
Your favorite food?
Your favorite animal?
Your favorite color?
black. even though its technically a shade.
The town in which you were born?
.
The town in which you live?
Name of a past pet?
ginger.
First name of past love?
more like crush. and it is this man.
Your nickname/screen name?
Your Middle Name?
i dont have a middle name. my whole name is rosemarie. thats it.
Your last Name?
only thing i could find with the word "vasallo" on it.
A Bad habit?
smoking.
Your first Job?
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| :::shine on me baby, cause it's raining in my heart::: |
[Jan. 22nd, 2008|12:29 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "A Dream For Us" The Appleseed Cast | ] |
******************************************************************
This is the place you end up when you lose the chase
Where you're dragged against your will from a basement on the hill
And all anybody knows is you're not like them
And they kick you in the head and send you back to bed
Isolation pulled you past a tunnel
To a bright world where you can make a place to stay
But everybody's scared of this place, they're staying away
Your little house on Memory Lane
The mayor's name is fear
His force patrols the pier
From a mountain of cliche
That advances every day
The doctor spoke a cloud
He rained out loud
You'll keep your doors and windows shut
And swear you'll never show a soul again
But isolation pushes you 'til every muscle aches
Down the only road it ever takes
But everybody's scared of this place, they're staying away
Your little house on Memory Lane
If it's your decision to be open about yourself
Be careful or else
Be careful or else
I'm comfortable apart
It's all written on my chart
And I take what's given me
Most cooperatively
I do what people say and lie in bed all day
Absolutely horrified
I hope you're satisfied
Isolation pushes past self-hatred, guilt, and shame
To a place where suffering is just a game
But everybody's scared of this place, they're staying away
Your little house on Memory Lane
Your little house on Memory Lane
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| :::Nobody told you, that I could just waltz through and shake up your style::: |
[Dec. 17th, 2007|11:27 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  devious | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Some Tragedy" The Good Life | ] |
i finally finished and turned in everything for this semester. thank god!
theres things going through my head.
{a n x i e t y}
i think its the good kind...yes that is possible.
every time i think about food i feel nauseous. its weird.
I tried to tell you but I couldn’t
I wanted to warn you but I need you so bad
I mean right now, you're all I have
i cant stop listening to that song. it's sooo good.
so i was talking to some kid at school today, and he told me to check out the brian jonestown massacre.
i typically dont listen to peoples music advice, but i actually did.
i was quite pleased. it's off center, but good.
i miss something/one...
"sometimes you just have to bite the bullet"~amanda.
we shall see. no really we will.
look. im lame!!!!!!!!!!
dont look into anything too much...
thats where things get confusing.
♥ |
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| :::you wrote the name and that ancient date::: |
[Nov. 19th, 2007|05:04 pm] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "You're Not You" The Good Life | ] |
my foot looks tan in the second pic. weird.
tattoos bitches.
they're still a bit swollen, and red.
they'll soon be scabbing...
and they'll look disgusting.
i hope this wednesday goes well.
i think it shall.
ilovemygirls.
twice this past week people thought i was a kid...
you gotta be fucking kidding me.
i can't stop listening to the good life. mmm.
♥
(i try not too think about it in hopes it'll stop...
it hasn't stopped and i can't stop thinking about it.) |
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| :::this restless, reckless slow dance with reckless, restless romance::: |
[Nov. 2nd, 2007|01:21 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Shadowplay" Joy Division | ] |
this is how you do sexy.
i love this bitch.
i cant get out of this emotional rut. one moment i feel feel better and then i return to the same introverted state a second later. the moments of feeling better are getting fewer and further between. i know im pushing people that i care about away. i literally can not help it right now. to those who still care: im sorry.
{note to self: remain mentally strong.}
i keep thinking im dying. i've had to stop walking the dog at night because whenever i hear the trains when im by myself it makes my anxiety rocket, and my whole dying thing is intensified.
i miss my brother. i found out 2 weeks ago that hes gunna be deployed. im scared about the fact that hes going to afghanistan at the end of december and theres nothing i can do about it. on tuesday my sociology teacher was talking about one of his past students who went to iraq. i almost started crying bc i hate the fact that my brother will have to kill somebody. they say the things you fear you manifest into your life. since i was little this was one of my fears. i dont know where it came from. its so stupid.
i pick my classes next week. thankfully theres something i can control in life.
control is good.
hopelessly hopeful.
i hate sympathy. i dont like feeling sorry for myself. life is hard for almost everyone. example: in speech some kid talked about some heart condition he had. he said it was the first time he ever talked about it to people since hes had it. the condition was named after him bc hes the first of his kind. he then went onto tell us about his life expectancy, he said his drs. said he would be lucky if he made it to 30. i dont know how he told people that without crying. it made me feel bad.
this year was the first year where i did something my whole weekend for halloween and dressed up for it. unfortunately i was mentally elsewhere and i couldnt fully enjoy it.
this mind needs to have a stop button.
♥
[pee. ess. my 22nd birthday is in less then 2 weeks.
my minds trying to come up with ideas for it.] |
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| :::there are days in this life when you see the teeth marks of time::: |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|12:09 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "rest my chemistry" interpol | ] |
it's quite an odd feeling looking at your life condensed to just a few boxes.
my life is at a constant fork in the road. quite common though.
no sleep till missouri. aka misery.
tired...from lack of sleep and redundancy.
sometimes its good to take a step back and really see things in their true light.
(we all get figured out in the long run)
on top of my 1/2 game...sorta. congrats to me.
mostofthisisnonsensicaltoanyoneelse.
♥ |
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| :::purify the colors, purify my mind, and spread the ashes of the colors in this heart of mine::: |
[Jun. 14th, 2006|01:29 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "This Modern Love" Bloc Party | ] |
im starting to believe a lot of people are comprised of a bunch of bull shit bull shit bull shit.
prove me wrong.
im starting to grow a backbone.
thank you to some people that listen and are good friends, and let me sit on their couches and talk about the stupidest/best things, and go laser tagging. thank you to friends that go to the beach with me, and make fun of kids with the star of david, and little kid orgys.
i still have to upload my pictures from wisconsin. i had fun there.
my boyfriend is the sweetest cranky boy you'll ever meet. oxymoronic. yes.
wolf spider
♥
.all.of.this.pretending.makes.me.feel.a.bit.confused. |
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| :::It's the sound of your racing heart that beats in time with every start::: |
[May. 9th, 2006|01:43 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Counting 5-4-3-2-1" Thursday | ] |
well...i have pictures. but their pretty much only from thursday and friday. ive figured that im better with updating with picture bc i have more incentive to after i upload all that shit.
( a few pics from thursday night bitches )
on friday i saw my chica for a lil bit. then i went to mikeys and alicias.
( im not the one who wanted to pray )
on saturday i worked. lame. then i hung out. good.
yesterday i went to mikeys and alicias. as usual. then when i was about to go home jimmy got free passes to the circus from the gas station. then i took pictures of myself when i was home alone.
  
today i worked, and i was really tired and had a bad headache. it sucked.
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| :::Sincerity's in, So don't you sound like you mean it::: |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|01:45 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)" The Arcade Fire | ] |
last night i got a deep cut on my finger at work while switching clothes out for our "visual" shit. it bled everywhere. oh yeah. at work im training to be a manager. thats the fucking laugh of my life.
on saturday i went to a gay party. literally a party where i was one of the only straight people out of about 25. it was in boys town to.
i got hit on by a lesbian while waiting to use the bathroom. it was so uncomfortable bc i didnt wanna be mean to her by pushing her off, yet i wanted her to stop getting all up on me. it made jimmy mad. eventually someone got out of the bathroom, then i ran for it.
jimmy and i had our one year sunday. i love that boy. *sigh*.
i dont have many friends...and honestly, i dont really care.
...im still cooler than a lot of people.
i miss my brother sam. he comes home on the 14th. im excited.
jimmy was in disney world for his spring break. (i know, its lame) but he left me his car and i had a lot of nice chica time. i also went to a show that was very good on thursday with rebbers, and tanya met up with us. war of ages was super amazing.
we took pics in the bar at knights bc we're cool.
i dont like to talk anymore, so just make sure you have something say to me.
i hope its still raining by the time i get in bed. mmm.
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| :::do you ever miss the sun at night or only despise it for abandoning you. it's so fucking fickle:: |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|12:10 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| |  geeky | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Me On Your Front Porch" Criteria | ] |
ive been sitting here attempting to type, but debating whether or not i should finish my cigarette first. i opted with typing bc i hate a blank screen starring back at me...or anything starring at me for that matter. it gives me the creeps.
halloween weekend: bekah and i looked hot. so did the boys. high hopes we're held. with my luck...nothing fun happened. lame, yet ever so predictable.
this weekend was pretty fun though. friday i went to the spitalfield show with jimmy, smiley(thank you for inviting me), and tanya. after that we sang fall out boy, which was quite fun, and then went to dennys. i drove like an old lady to. i cant see at night.
the next day consisted of work from 1-10. which sucked and went by slow. i hate that shift. at least i have the other girls at work to keep me company. following that i went to tanya's with j-man and dustin. then jimmy slept over...and i passed out by like 3:45, and didnt wake up for good till 1:20. woo!
( ...it's the same old song, the same old harmony...dont sell out )
ive adopted hey chris's livejournal/website as my bible. it's weird. i seriously look up to him a ton. im such a lurker. fuck. i also partake as being one the creeps that reads pete wentz's old lj. word.
i really really wanna see underoath on sunday...for my birthday. mmm. sextacular.
with that in mind: MY 20TH BIRTHDAY IS ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!! OHKAY BITCHES! DONT FORGET!
daphne loves derby: november 17th....i think. well whatever day it is...i wanna go.
.imagineacorpsethatisboredwithitsownfuneral.thisisme.
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| :::this one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption::: |
[Oct. 27th, 2005|01:59 am] |
| [ | Feelin' it |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | Currently rocking |
| | "Fond Farewell" Elliot Smith | ] |
i get to sleep in tomorrow...and im currently in the mood to update my lj....weird.
work is going pretty well. im warming up to the girls. i thought they were all nice from the beginning, but im kinda shy when im thrown into a group of people that all know each other, and im the odd one out. i guess you could say, im not myself at work...but then again they pay me to not yell "WOO COLLEGE! SHOW ME YOUR TITS!" to customers. i guess that comes with the territory of having to act semi-professional.
i get paid friday. thank god for that. im dead broke...its sick. i hate having to live from pay check to pay check...and the fact that financially my life at home isnt good either.
i wish i could stop growing up. right now. *closes eyes, crosses fingers, and wishes*.
halloween weekend is 2 days away. yay! im excited for that. hopefully i actually find something to do.
today is jimmy and i's 7 month. *big smile*. ilovehimwithallmyheart.
so one of my managers, anehi, knows a huge tool bag i used to date, bc she used to date one of the guys that was in his band. im glad the lamest kids alive know how to stick together. not.
i meet a lot of random/weird people during my breaks at work. i also find myself smile whenever i see families that appear to be happy walk by. i dont know why.
my 20th bday is in technically 19 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! remember that kids.
i want a fake id so that i can pretend im cool like everyone else who has one. wait...what?
why is jose dead and not around lately? huh?!?!?!?!?!?
im sick of writing about myself bc my life is boring.
mebe if i join a gang or a cult, or something, it'll get cooler.
good night.
[pee. ess. could someone please explain to me why the fuck my neighbors below me put their annoying fucking dog that barks at anything, including the wind, outside at 6:20 in the morning? its not that they let it out that bothers me, they need to let it out. its the fact that they leave it out there for at least 25 minutes. i swear one day im gunna kill that dumb bitch that lives below me for being an inconsiderate whore. it's not like she does it at 10 in the morning...i could deal with that. i had an hour more to sleep before work this morning when that dog woke me up...but no i couldnt sleep bc she has to be cunt. fuck you ug-o neighbor.]
[/end rant]
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